UGH....

I have done so bad over the last few days, I can not for the life of me keep myself in control. I only want control and I cant seem to do that. So for the past few hours I have been thinking and looking at pictures of others out there who are thin. Just like I want to be, I figured I can do it. I know I can do it if they could do it then so can I!

I am going to re-start my diet for the last time Monday! No matter what I am going to stick with it and loose this extra weight I need to get rid of. I will finally be happy with myself after that, I will finally be able to stand the look of myself.

I also decided to write down every single part of my body I HATE!! The ones I need to change, what I like about the thin body.

HATE:
-My thighs
-My butt
-My arms
-My ankles

THIN BODY LIKES:
-Rib Bones
-Collar Bones
-Thin Stomach
-Thin legs/arms

I want to lay down in bed and see my ribs, I wan to lay on my side and see my hip bones. I want to feel the bones and see them under my skin.